What Motivates You and Drives You? You Tell Me! Let my RJ tell u!

I am terribly tired after my work and many days of insomnia, so please forgive me if I am too brief or if I just use point form to get to the point.

1. Age - I am older than all of them in the class, therefore I am the oldest in my team. The sadder fact is that I feel even older in my heart and soul.

2. Experience - Being older gives me also the opportunity to get more wisdom and experiences in life. I do not know how to quantify it but I guess I have seen more bad days than good days.

3. Passion - Well that is something all of us have in common. A passion for a sport or a particular interest. It is what drives us and it is what makes everyone of us feel alive. I do envy them as my fire inside has died down substantially throughout my years. (not that I am that old, just that I feel old)

4. Spontaneous - Well everyone of us is spontaneous in sports knowledge as most of us like what we are studying. I would agree that sometimes a tired and lethargic facade, lies a spontaneous and fiery heart ready to roll.

5. Speaking and communication skills - this is something that may put me apart from the rests. But no matter how different we are, all of us are the same in the never ending cycle to try to improve ourselves.

6. Articulation and language control - same as point 5

7. Innovation and point of view - Everyone of us in the team has a unique way of doing and looking at things and I appreciate it because it would open up my mind to other viewpoints and school of thoughts and it makes the presentation and lesson more interesting.

So how does today's learning affect the way I manage my motivation levels? Well, that's a tough one, but I hope my arguments are good enough to substantiate my point of view.

1. Generalized theory - I feel that whatever we learnt today are only theories that may appear to sync with a selected group of people. I don't think it's applicable to everybody and it really depends on the individual.

2. Personality defers - For instance, in my case. I am looking for something more, like the motivation to stay alive and to live in wait for something worth waiting for and that something that justifies life itself.

3. Goal planning maybe but to what end? - We always talk about setting goals and targets, so that you will achieve what you always wished for. But, what if what I always wished for is really intangible? I am sorry to be seemingly apathic at times, but being an existentialist myself, I question the meaning of life all the time.

At the end of it all, I may conclude myself as not properly motivated or passionate to feel the need to achieve anything. But can a one sentence seemingly shallow conclusion justify my feelings towards life and what it offers? I do not know, the question still looms in my head like a never ending bell. We live but to what end?