Saturday, May 19, 2007
Friday, May 18, 2007
Who say breakdancing can't hurt kids?
Bboys Please be careful of your environment when you do power moves :)
Monday, May 14, 2007
Psychology and Personal Understanding
This is one article I wrote for my psychology module out of pure understanding and inspiration.
It feels weird when you try to classify your everyday action, yet ironically you can actually get to understand yourself better at the same times. Sometimes we feel that we do things that we don't understand or know why we do them. However, psychology has yet to prove us otherwise. "Cause and effect", "reasons and meanings" and " Problems and solutions" occupy the times from our daily life.
For me, I guess most of my experiences are attributed accordingly to what I feel inside. You can say it's internal and controllable, yet most of the things that happen after I act accordingly to what I feel innately are external and uncontrollable. I can't predict and control how other people react to my actions, but I can learn to handle them better.
So I do feel that from external and uncontrollable attributions, you can sort of modify your internal and controllable attributions to suit the general public. But, does it kill the real you? Does it erode whatever individuality and uniqueness you hold dear to yourself? These questions remain unanswered, but I have faith that one day, I will have a compromise of internal, external, controllable and uncontrollable attributions.
Today's trigger did ignite some thoughts and pondering in my mind. I learnt a lot even though it seems to little and I hope that in time to come, I will come to understand myself better by understanding the fascinating works of the human mind.
It feels weird when you try to classify your everyday action, yet ironically you can actually get to understand yourself better at the same times. Sometimes we feel that we do things that we don't understand or know why we do them. However, psychology has yet to prove us otherwise. "Cause and effect", "reasons and meanings" and " Problems and solutions" occupy the times from our daily life.
For me, I guess most of my experiences are attributed accordingly to what I feel inside. You can say it's internal and controllable, yet most of the things that happen after I act accordingly to what I feel innately are external and uncontrollable. I can't predict and control how other people react to my actions, but I can learn to handle them better.
So I do feel that from external and uncontrollable attributions, you can sort of modify your internal and controllable attributions to suit the general public. But, does it kill the real you? Does it erode whatever individuality and uniqueness you hold dear to yourself? These questions remain unanswered, but I have faith that one day, I will have a compromise of internal, external, controllable and uncontrollable attributions.
Today's trigger did ignite some thoughts and pondering in my mind. I learnt a lot even though it seems to little and I hope that in time to come, I will come to understand myself better by understanding the fascinating works of the human mind.
Sunday, May 6, 2007
My Colourgenic Profile from http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg
You feel as if you have missed out on a great deal that life had to offer and you go about trying to make up for past failures. Naturally at times you get depressed and you try to compensate for your 'missed opportunities' by living your life to the full. This is what, perhaps, may be described as 'living with exaggerated intensity'. In this way you feel you can break the chains of the past and start again - and it could be that you are right.
Being a somewhat gentle, emotional and sensitive person, you are at this time experiencing a considerable amount of tension. What you really need is someone who can be close to you and to listen to what you have to say.
You give the impression that you are a self-sufficient individual, pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain or pleasure. But this is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional person, one that may make hasty decisions and perhaps repent at leisure. It is time now perhaps to break the bond of detachment and become the real 'you' - the you that you would like to be.
Recently everything seems to have gone wrong and so you are experiencing considerable stress and anxiety due to mental conflict. A continuous case of 'Should I?' or 'Shouldn't I?'. At this particular moment in time you feel as if you have reached the end of your tether and it seems impossible to ever rectify the situation and so you have decided, perhaps quite unrealistically, to postpone making any further decisions. Disappointment and unfulfilled hopes have given rise to despondency. This conflict between hope and necessity is creating considerable pressure. Instead of resolving this by facing up to making the essential decision, you are likely to immerse yourself in the pursuit of trivialities as an escape route.
The tensions that you are trying to cope with are a result of conditions which are really beyond your control. As a consequence of this almost impossible situation and not being able to get your own way, you are subjected to frustration and almost ungovernable anger. You are trying to remedy the situation but the stress that you are experiencing is making the situation even worse. You feel so inadequate that you are not quite sure which way to turn. A good suggestion would to be to try to relieve the stress and anxiety by participating in some very active physical activity which will relieve your tension.
My comments : The above analysis is uncanny and spot on.
Being a somewhat gentle, emotional and sensitive person, you are at this time experiencing a considerable amount of tension. What you really need is someone who can be close to you and to listen to what you have to say.
You give the impression that you are a self-sufficient individual, pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain or pleasure. But this is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional person, one that may make hasty decisions and perhaps repent at leisure. It is time now perhaps to break the bond of detachment and become the real 'you' - the you that you would like to be.
Recently everything seems to have gone wrong and so you are experiencing considerable stress and anxiety due to mental conflict. A continuous case of 'Should I?' or 'Shouldn't I?'. At this particular moment in time you feel as if you have reached the end of your tether and it seems impossible to ever rectify the situation and so you have decided, perhaps quite unrealistically, to postpone making any further decisions. Disappointment and unfulfilled hopes have given rise to despondency. This conflict between hope and necessity is creating considerable pressure. Instead of resolving this by facing up to making the essential decision, you are likely to immerse yourself in the pursuit of trivialities as an escape route.
The tensions that you are trying to cope with are a result of conditions which are really beyond your control. As a consequence of this almost impossible situation and not being able to get your own way, you are subjected to frustration and almost ungovernable anger. You are trying to remedy the situation but the stress that you are experiencing is making the situation even worse. You feel so inadequate that you are not quite sure which way to turn. A good suggestion would to be to try to relieve the stress and anxiety by participating in some very active physical activity which will relieve your tension.
My comments : The above analysis is uncanny and spot on.
Friday, April 27, 2007
What Motivates You and Drives You? You Tell Me! Let my RJ tell u!
I am terribly tired after my work and many days of insomnia, so please forgive me if I am too brief or if I just use point form to get to the point.
1. Age - I am older than all of them in the class, therefore I am the oldest in my team. The sadder fact is that I feel even older in my heart and soul.
2. Experience - Being older gives me also the opportunity to get more wisdom and experiences in life. I do not know how to quantify it but I guess I have seen more bad days than good days.
3. Passion - Well that is something all of us have in common. A passion for a sport or a particular interest. It is what drives us and it is what makes everyone of us feel alive. I do envy them as my fire inside has died down substantially throughout my years. (not that I am that old, just that I feel old)
4. Spontaneous - Well everyone of us is spontaneous in sports knowledge as most of us like what we are studying. I would agree that sometimes a tired and lethargic facade, lies a spontaneous and fiery heart ready to roll.
5. Speaking and communication skills - this is something that may put me apart from the rests. But no matter how different we are, all of us are the same in the never ending cycle to try to improve ourselves.
6. Articulation and language control - same as point 5
7. Innovation and point of view - Everyone of us in the team has a unique way of doing and looking at things and I appreciate it because it would open up my mind to other viewpoints and school of thoughts and it makes the presentation and lesson more interesting.
So how does today's learning affect the way I manage my motivation levels? Well, that's a tough one, but I hope my arguments are good enough to substantiate my point of view.
1. Generalized theory - I feel that whatever we learnt today are only theories that may appear to sync with a selected group of people. I don't think it's applicable to everybody and it really depends on the individual.
2. Personality defers - For instance, in my case. I am looking for something more, like the motivation to stay alive and to live in wait for something worth waiting for and that something that justifies life itself.
3. Goal planning maybe but to what end? - We always talk about setting goals and targets, so that you will achieve what you always wished for. But, what if what I always wished for is really intangible? I am sorry to be seemingly apathic at times, but being an existentialist myself, I question the meaning of life all the time.
At the end of it all, I may conclude myself as not properly motivated or passionate to feel the need to achieve anything. But can a one sentence seemingly shallow conclusion justify my feelings towards life and what it offers? I do not know, the question still looms in my head like a never ending bell. We live but to what end?
1. Age - I am older than all of them in the class, therefore I am the oldest in my team. The sadder fact is that I feel even older in my heart and soul.
2. Experience - Being older gives me also the opportunity to get more wisdom and experiences in life. I do not know how to quantify it but I guess I have seen more bad days than good days.
3. Passion - Well that is something all of us have in common. A passion for a sport or a particular interest. It is what drives us and it is what makes everyone of us feel alive. I do envy them as my fire inside has died down substantially throughout my years. (not that I am that old, just that I feel old)
4. Spontaneous - Well everyone of us is spontaneous in sports knowledge as most of us like what we are studying. I would agree that sometimes a tired and lethargic facade, lies a spontaneous and fiery heart ready to roll.
5. Speaking and communication skills - this is something that may put me apart from the rests. But no matter how different we are, all of us are the same in the never ending cycle to try to improve ourselves.
6. Articulation and language control - same as point 5
7. Innovation and point of view - Everyone of us in the team has a unique way of doing and looking at things and I appreciate it because it would open up my mind to other viewpoints and school of thoughts and it makes the presentation and lesson more interesting.
So how does today's learning affect the way I manage my motivation levels? Well, that's a tough one, but I hope my arguments are good enough to substantiate my point of view.
1. Generalized theory - I feel that whatever we learnt today are only theories that may appear to sync with a selected group of people. I don't think it's applicable to everybody and it really depends on the individual.
2. Personality defers - For instance, in my case. I am looking for something more, like the motivation to stay alive and to live in wait for something worth waiting for and that something that justifies life itself.
3. Goal planning maybe but to what end? - We always talk about setting goals and targets, so that you will achieve what you always wished for. But, what if what I always wished for is really intangible? I am sorry to be seemingly apathic at times, but being an existentialist myself, I question the meaning of life all the time.
At the end of it all, I may conclude myself as not properly motivated or passionate to feel the need to achieve anything. But can a one sentence seemingly shallow conclusion justify my feelings towards life and what it offers? I do not know, the question still looms in my head like a never ending bell. We live but to what end?
Another RJ with comments by a vibrant native indian sports psychologist.
My RJ ;
My short-term goal is to get married so I can hopefully ascend to the next level of life. However, before that can happen, I would need to establish myself with a good reputation and a stable flow of income. Adding on to that, I hope that my career in the fitness industry will escalate to a higher level. My long-term is to seek enlightenment and find more meaning in life. Being an existentialist myself, I question life and what it offers all the time. I try to seek solutions and meanings but have ended up jaded and tired. Realize that I am not lamenting any unfortunate happens in my fields on experience but more like a personal viewpoint that I possess. Well, basically if I were to apply these goals to tangible things like my training routine or how to go about getting my academic qualifications, then I guess it would suffice. However, when you are applying it to a higher level, as in sometimes that's intangible. Then it might not be very relevant. Even though you can practice SMARTER into our daily lives. The constant asking of "Why"s sometimes can stop the goal from being planned. This is the way I feel and I really hope to learn more in this module to improve my life and make it more meaningful and wholesome.
Her reply ;
Hi,
good luck in your endeavors:) I FERVENTLY hope you will get the "enlightenment" and find the "more meaning in life".
A very impressive performance throughout the day:) Keep up the good work! I'm particularly impressed with your spirit in not taking remarks from your classmates personally and your zealousness to assist your classmates (even those other than team members):) Good going man!
PS: You have not evaluated your team-mate Khng En Ning
Cheers
What I feel;
I seriously find her interesting and her humour is unmatched.
My short-term goal is to get married so I can hopefully ascend to the next level of life. However, before that can happen, I would need to establish myself with a good reputation and a stable flow of income. Adding on to that, I hope that my career in the fitness industry will escalate to a higher level. My long-term is to seek enlightenment and find more meaning in life. Being an existentialist myself, I question life and what it offers all the time. I try to seek solutions and meanings but have ended up jaded and tired. Realize that I am not lamenting any unfortunate happens in my fields on experience but more like a personal viewpoint that I possess. Well, basically if I were to apply these goals to tangible things like my training routine or how to go about getting my academic qualifications, then I guess it would suffice. However, when you are applying it to a higher level, as in sometimes that's intangible. Then it might not be very relevant. Even though you can practice SMARTER into our daily lives. The constant asking of "Why"s sometimes can stop the goal from being planned. This is the way I feel and I really hope to learn more in this module to improve my life and make it more meaningful and wholesome.
Her reply ;
Hi,
good luck in your endeavors:) I FERVENTLY hope you will get the "enlightenment" and find the "more meaning in life".
A very impressive performance throughout the day:) Keep up the good work! I'm particularly impressed with your spirit in not taking remarks from your classmates personally and your zealousness to assist your classmates (even those other than team members):) Good going man!
PS: You have not evaluated your team-mate Khng En Ning
Cheers
What I feel;
I seriously find her interesting and her humour is unmatched.
Monday, April 16, 2007
A reflection journal i sent to LEO for Eliza Teo my beloved facilitator who wants to get to know her students better
Firstly, before I tell you about myself I would like to let you know somethings I noticed.
Firstly, I have difficulty in remembering whatever facts I learnt before so I'm sorry if I gave the incorrect information at times. However, I do notice when I hear information that seem very wrong at times, you just seem to let it go. Please try to let the class know that if we have given the wrong facts or definitions because at the moment, only you have the expertise.
I was hoping that you would point out later before the class ended, but I didn't hear it so I guess I'll just tell you in the RJ instead of sending you an email. So now, maybe I'll start telling you more about me.
Like you, I believe in RP-PBL methodology and I too believe it takes two hands to clap. Also, I am taking this diploma because I know certifications for the fitness line can be taken through crash courses and in short durations. So short that sometimes, the educating process of knowledge is somewhat compromise. Therefore, I choose to backtrack and take a diploma to gain more formal or informal knowledge about sports and exercise.
I would really appreciate, that you upload or email resources for us to do reading before the lessons start, so as to pre-empt us on what's going to happen and also for us to have enough background knowledge to start doing whatever we need to do. This is really essential because there are no 6P and these modules are really applicable in our careers.
Of course, I do know that resource databases like pubmed may have what is required, but it is really taxing and difficult to find articles that is directly related to our modules and problems because we do not know all the problem statements and related topics. So, I implore you do to try and do something about it.
I actually considered joining RP either as an AA or facilitator initially, but I decided to take a plunge in the fitness industry to chase some of my passionate dreams. I aim to help people and also corporations get healthy and fit, eventually leading to a healthier lifestyle.
As for my character, half the time I keep people guessing what are my thoughts. This is because sometimes what I say and what I do may surprise or even confuse people. But rest assured, that all times that my intentions are kind and of no ill-will. I am an extrovert and introvert at the same time. Extroverted by circumstances and introverted by nature. You cannot survive if you keep to yourself most of the time, so you need to at least a sociable and approachable front if you want to handle real life situations.
As for introverted nature lies the obsfucation of my real character. Sure I'm essentially a nice person, but like all people I do have my share of woes. But what's so great about talking sad things, when you probably have a truckload of good things awaiting for you in life. I love weight training and recently I'm doing a lot of cardiovascular workout because I just recovered (partial recovery though). I am cynical at times because of what I have encountered through my own fields of experience, but I always give everyone a benefit of the doubt and a second chance if I can.
When I am free I read books, poetry, listen to music, bitch about life and the government. I love to share with people my ever changing philosophies and point of view in life, sometimes too enthusiatic that I neglect to understand other's viewpoint. What can I say, I am just a depressing passionate guy. What a delightful combination , don't you think?
Firstly, I have difficulty in remembering whatever facts I learnt before so I'm sorry if I gave the incorrect information at times. However, I do notice when I hear information that seem very wrong at times, you just seem to let it go. Please try to let the class know that if we have given the wrong facts or definitions because at the moment, only you have the expertise.
I was hoping that you would point out later before the class ended, but I didn't hear it so I guess I'll just tell you in the RJ instead of sending you an email. So now, maybe I'll start telling you more about me.
Like you, I believe in RP-PBL methodology and I too believe it takes two hands to clap. Also, I am taking this diploma because I know certifications for the fitness line can be taken through crash courses and in short durations. So short that sometimes, the educating process of knowledge is somewhat compromise. Therefore, I choose to backtrack and take a diploma to gain more formal or informal knowledge about sports and exercise.
I would really appreciate, that you upload or email resources for us to do reading before the lessons start, so as to pre-empt us on what's going to happen and also for us to have enough background knowledge to start doing whatever we need to do. This is really essential because there are no 6P and these modules are really applicable in our careers.
Of course, I do know that resource databases like pubmed may have what is required, but it is really taxing and difficult to find articles that is directly related to our modules and problems because we do not know all the problem statements and related topics. So, I implore you do to try and do something about it.
I actually considered joining RP either as an AA or facilitator initially, but I decided to take a plunge in the fitness industry to chase some of my passionate dreams. I aim to help people and also corporations get healthy and fit, eventually leading to a healthier lifestyle.
As for my character, half the time I keep people guessing what are my thoughts. This is because sometimes what I say and what I do may surprise or even confuse people. But rest assured, that all times that my intentions are kind and of no ill-will. I am an extrovert and introvert at the same time. Extroverted by circumstances and introverted by nature. You cannot survive if you keep to yourself most of the time, so you need to at least a sociable and approachable front if you want to handle real life situations.
As for introverted nature lies the obsfucation of my real character. Sure I'm essentially a nice person, but like all people I do have my share of woes. But what's so great about talking sad things, when you probably have a truckload of good things awaiting for you in life. I love weight training and recently I'm doing a lot of cardiovascular workout because I just recovered (partial recovery though). I am cynical at times because of what I have encountered through my own fields of experience, but I always give everyone a benefit of the doubt and a second chance if I can.
When I am free I read books, poetry, listen to music, bitch about life and the government. I love to share with people my ever changing philosophies and point of view in life, sometimes too enthusiatic that I neglect to understand other's viewpoint. What can I say, I am just a depressing passionate guy. What a delightful combination , don't you think?
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Eleventh post a random thought
Just had the urge to post this clip I found in youtube.
Suck my balls!
Suck my balls!
Friday, March 23, 2007
Tenth post and here's some random thoughts
Just wanted to tell you guys that I really love this album I bought during the first time I met M. I really love the female's vocals and the band's performance. The lyrics for Angels are below.
Angels
Sparkling angel I believed
you were my saviour in my time of need.
Blinded by faith I couldn't hear
all the whispers, the warnings so clear.
I see the angels,
I'll lead them to your door.
There's no escape now,
no mercy no more.
No remorse cause I still remember
the smile when you tore me apart.
Chorus:
You took my heart,
deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they would turn into real.
You broke the promise and made me realise.
It was all just a lie.
Sparkling angel, I couldn't see
your dark intentions, your feelings for me.
Fallen angel, tell me why.
What is the reason, the thorn in your eye?
I see the angels,
I'll lead them to your door
There's no escape now
no mercy no more
No remorse cause I still remember
the smile when you tore me apart
Chorus:
You took my heart,
deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they would turn into real.
You broke the promise and made me realise.
It was all just a lie.
Could have been forever.
Now we have reached the end.
This world may have failed you,
it doesn't give you reason why.
You could have chosen a different path in life.
The smile when you tore me apart.
Ninth post and i'm climbing out of my nine hells
Life is what you made up of you. I try to tell myself that I am lucky, fortunate and I should be grateful for what has been bestowed upon me. Then I ask myself again, why? Why do I feel this certain hollow part in my heart, soul and whatever that encompasses my passion and my lifeforce. Why do I feel so dead, even when the situation is so alive? Why do I feel sad when I should be happy? I really want to smile, laugh and cheer for the life that I have. Then comes the question again, why don't I punch my fist up to the air and rejoice for what I have. Well John, you always have question. Like what Miss HW would say, that is an existentionlist question. Am I doubting the significance of my presence in this material plane or am I just too caught up thinking about things that have no significance at all? I don't know, I really don't know. Recently, three potential soulmates came spiralling into my life. First one was J, then S and now M. I really hope it stops at M, I can't stand disappointments and depression again. It is just all so redundant.
J was probably one of my baby steps towards a relationship. Only to let me discover, how much I detest the idea of being with her at the end of the day. Why I feel this way? I have no eff-ing idea! S was very nice to me and I really liked her. But why John? Why must you have a heart? I couldn't bear to hurt her and myself. Then why did I land her in such a situation in the first place? I got no idea what I was doing, I know I liked her a lot but why does the social norm , status quo and "right way of things" have to justify that I leave her? Why does my heart and mind defer so much in rationality and decision-making process? And yet in the end, I chose to let her go. M came in like a whirlwind and I never did expect what was coming. She had her own set of problems, but we seem to be like kindred spirits. It was a rarity to find someone who actually almost know how I feel and my thoughts. It all seemed too good to be true, but some part of me feel apprehensive.
It's not that I don't trust M, in fact, I really want to. But like what she said, I need reassurances and I need confirmations. Yes! Mock me, mock John the "uncaring" man. I tried so hard not to think and care so much. But I always seem to be drawn into worrying, caring and feeling for people so much, especially the people I love or I want to love or start loving. So tell me world, why do I always end up like a neverending twirl of barbwire. Hurting and being hurt by the spikes of life and experience in the neverending process of trying to live a simple but fulfilling life.
J was probably one of my baby steps towards a relationship. Only to let me discover, how much I detest the idea of being with her at the end of the day. Why I feel this way? I have no eff-ing idea! S was very nice to me and I really liked her. But why John? Why must you have a heart? I couldn't bear to hurt her and myself. Then why did I land her in such a situation in the first place? I got no idea what I was doing, I know I liked her a lot but why does the social norm , status quo and "right way of things" have to justify that I leave her? Why does my heart and mind defer so much in rationality and decision-making process? And yet in the end, I chose to let her go. M came in like a whirlwind and I never did expect what was coming. She had her own set of problems, but we seem to be like kindred spirits. It was a rarity to find someone who actually almost know how I feel and my thoughts. It all seemed too good to be true, but some part of me feel apprehensive.
It's not that I don't trust M, in fact, I really want to. But like what she said, I need reassurances and I need confirmations. Yes! Mock me, mock John the "uncaring" man. I tried so hard not to think and care so much. But I always seem to be drawn into worrying, caring and feeling for people so much, especially the people I love or I want to love or start loving. So tell me world, why do I always end up like a neverending twirl of barbwire. Hurting and being hurt by the spikes of life and experience in the neverending process of trying to live a simple but fulfilling life.
Monday, March 19, 2007
Eighth post and not all things are superficial.
Was supposed to meet my manager today in the morning at NYP, only to find rain pouring during the early morn. So, I canceled the appointment, only to find the rain cleared up around 8 plus. Therefore, I conclude that God must have not wanted me there for some reason. Well, S came over to my place around 5 plus and companied me till 7. We headed to the MRT and she headed to her party and I headed to my own gathering at pitstop cafe, which is located at boatquay. They have an URL and here is it.
http://pitstopcafe.blogspot.com
Well, the service was fine and the atmosphere was comfortable. It gave me a very homely feeling and there were many board/card games to choose from. The 7 of us really had a fun time there. James, Sabrina, Jess, Sarah, Theresa and Mingyu turned up and boy did we had fun. I have always appreciated the simple things in life and I hope that there more of these in the future. Also, I might be traveling to Kukup or Pulau Ubin Chalet with them again in the future.
I seem to have lost a little bit of inspiration to relate what I feel with the stories and books I have recently heard and read. I would probably do it in the next post. Meanwhile I am still trying hard to piece up my thoughts and ideas. Been too crowded with complex issues lately. John signing off again.
http://pitstopcafe.blogspot.com
Well, the service was fine and the atmosphere was comfortable. It gave me a very homely feeling and there were many board/card games to choose from. The 7 of us really had a fun time there. James, Sabrina, Jess, Sarah, Theresa and Mingyu turned up and boy did we had fun. I have always appreciated the simple things in life and I hope that there more of these in the future. Also, I might be traveling to Kukup or Pulau Ubin Chalet with them again in the future.
I seem to have lost a little bit of inspiration to relate what I feel with the stories and books I have recently heard and read. I would probably do it in the next post. Meanwhile I am still trying hard to piece up my thoughts and ideas. Been too crowded with complex issues lately. John signing off again.
Friday, March 16, 2007
Seventh post relieves me of my troubles.
This post was actually drafted when I was on the MRT to ACS barker to train my client.
Like what Drizzt says the "silent blade" cuts you deep within. Not physically, but both mentally and emotionally. Breeding inner demons in you and leaves yoy confused and winded. In our daily lives, there are times that we might or already have encountered silent blades. These incidents makes us stronger, changes us to who we are now. They also gives us knowledge, making us wiser and to make us know how to better handle situations in the future. We are humans, we are adaptable, resilient and we can recover from hurt and injuries.
What does not kill you, really does make you stronger. For the physical aspect, our scar tissue are harder and stronger as compared to what it was before the injury. For emotional and mental aspects, we develop wisdom and street-smartness to handle situations. Therefore, we must always try to reflect on our own actions and emphatize with the viewpoints and feelings of other people. These will help heal our sadness and wounds. Sharing happiness and enjoyment will also eventually lead us to become a wholesome and pleasant person.
Like what Drizzt says the "silent blade" cuts you deep within. Not physically, but both mentally and emotionally. Breeding inner demons in you and leaves yoy confused and winded. In our daily lives, there are times that we might or already have encountered silent blades. These incidents makes us stronger, changes us to who we are now. They also gives us knowledge, making us wiser and to make us know how to better handle situations in the future. We are humans, we are adaptable, resilient and we can recover from hurt and injuries.
What does not kill you, really does make you stronger. For the physical aspect, our scar tissue are harder and stronger as compared to what it was before the injury. For emotional and mental aspects, we develop wisdom and street-smartness to handle situations. Therefore, we must always try to reflect on our own actions and emphatize with the viewpoints and feelings of other people. These will help heal our sadness and wounds. Sharing happiness and enjoyment will also eventually lead us to become a wholesome and pleasant person.
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Sixth post and six times for revelation
It was a bleak day yesterday. J decided that we were not suitable for each other and ended it off. Oh well, one week was a great time anyway. Now then, to numb my senses (not that they aren't numb or jaded), I spent around $80 to buy both the Legacy of the Drow and also The Cleric Quintet. These are made up of 7 books each combined to a massive paperback. I apologize for not talking about Jarlaxe for this post, simply because I ain't in the mood for it. So a thousand apologies for people who I have postponed the review date of the particular rogue.
Anyway Legacy of the Drow is a continuation after Drizzt's and friends exploits after Ice Wind Dale. The Cleric Quintet is that of Cadderly, who will be responsible in destroying the Crystal Shard. Till then people, take care! Be yourself!
Anyway Legacy of the Drow is a continuation after Drizzt's and friends exploits after Ice Wind Dale. The Cleric Quintet is that of Cadderly, who will be responsible in destroying the Crystal Shard. Till then people, take care! Be yourself!
Sunday, March 11, 2007
Fifth post and I have five fingers
Today's post would be rather random and extract, only people who have read up on the novels I read would be able to relate to it. In the Icewind Dale series, we know of the inner turmoil of the dark elf Drizzt and his dark heritage. As he comes to turns with his own morals and code of coduct, he found out that he has a new problem. The racism he faces when he enters the surface world. R.A Salvatore is smart to use Drizzt to send a subtle message to the readers that we should not stereotype and not all people of are bad. Dark elf may represent many groups of people in out journeys in life. Maybe race, country, mafia, triads , religions and maybe even the general public. I also think of Drizzt as a redemption, a ray of light in this darkness. While some people may argue that Drizzt is just a character for attention seeking properties , I beg to differ.
Even though, R.A Salvatore may place too much emphasis on a particular character, he does it for a reason. He splendidly spins in Artemis Enteri into the scene. Artemis Enteri can be seen as a mirror image of Drizzt. Drizzt seeks to be everything he is not and Enteri vice-versa. Although they are very similar, but they are different. And of course, they hate each other and want to eliminate each other. Isn't this somewhat similar to the inner turmoils we face in each of our daily lives. Like as though we have some dark past that we wish to erase, but we were never able to do it. The best thing to do is to accept the fact and live with it. Coming to terms with it is never easy, but with help and encouragement it can be done.
For Drizzt, there are Wulfgar, Bruenor, Cattie-Brie and Regis. Ahh, one might think that that might be no one for Enteri. However, ironic and confusing this may seem. Enteri's kindred spirit is a drow by the name of Jarlaxe. Jarlaxe himself is a complex and very interesting character, but you got to wait for my next post as I have to prepare to work. Till then , take care readers!
Even though, R.A Salvatore may place too much emphasis on a particular character, he does it for a reason. He splendidly spins in Artemis Enteri into the scene. Artemis Enteri can be seen as a mirror image of Drizzt. Drizzt seeks to be everything he is not and Enteri vice-versa. Although they are very similar, but they are different. And of course, they hate each other and want to eliminate each other. Isn't this somewhat similar to the inner turmoils we face in each of our daily lives. Like as though we have some dark past that we wish to erase, but we were never able to do it. The best thing to do is to accept the fact and live with it. Coming to terms with it is never easy, but with help and encouragement it can be done.
For Drizzt, there are Wulfgar, Bruenor, Cattie-Brie and Regis. Ahh, one might think that that might be no one for Enteri. However, ironic and confusing this may seem. Enteri's kindred spirit is a drow by the name of Jarlaxe. Jarlaxe himself is a complex and very interesting character, but you got to wait for my next post as I have to prepare to work. Till then , take care readers!
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Four post four wishes for you
Well this is today's program for today.
1. Mow the lawn!
2. PT session at Sunglade with Vivien at 11:30
3. Write out programs for my diligent particicpants of my body contour program
4. Work at NYP from 2-7
5. Meet J!
As usual I am listening to it's not over by Chris Daughty. Maybe, somewhere in my heart I seek some kind of forgiveness. In the MTV, the scene of getting out of the prison shows me slowly coming out of my self-denial, depression and torment. The rest of the scene that shows him looking for a job is just like how I have always met obstacles here and there in life. But do not fret, for there is always another chance in life. Notice I did not say second chance, but another chance. We always hope to do what we never did before. We always try desperately to hold onto and grab onto the past. Hoping to right what's wrong.
The truth is, it will never or seldom happen and that we must always cherish what's in front of us before we lose them. Been through done that, still realizing the aftermath of all failed relationships/friendships. So people who are reading now, if things are not right, please set it right. If things fail, give yourself another chance. Remember life goes not, " it's not over".
1. Mow the lawn!
2. PT session at Sunglade with Vivien at 11:30
3. Write out programs for my diligent particicpants of my body contour program
4. Work at NYP from 2-7
5. Meet J!
As usual I am listening to it's not over by Chris Daughty. Maybe, somewhere in my heart I seek some kind of forgiveness. In the MTV, the scene of getting out of the prison shows me slowly coming out of my self-denial, depression and torment. The rest of the scene that shows him looking for a job is just like how I have always met obstacles here and there in life. But do not fret, for there is always another chance in life. Notice I did not say second chance, but another chance. We always hope to do what we never did before. We always try desperately to hold onto and grab onto the past. Hoping to right what's wrong.
The truth is, it will never or seldom happen and that we must always cherish what's in front of us before we lose them. Been through done that, still realizing the aftermath of all failed relationships/friendships. So people who are reading now, if things are not right, please set it right. If things fail, give yourself another chance. Remember life goes not, " it's not over".
Three post the three blind mice
Today was a brainless but happy day. It was just slack and enjoy, slack and enjoy. And so, J stayed over at my house. Guess what, I actually managed to pack my room and I am proud to call my room neat or something close to that. I passed Louis my Icewind Dale collection and hope he would enjoyed the book like I did. Like I said, today is a slack and enjoy day. Went with J to Hougang mall and had Ichiban japanese food. Sashimi and unagi and their wholesome goodness!
In case you guys are wondering who J is? J is my girl! Well then Brother John! Any revelations? Well, I found out that even though I am kinda old, I am rather spoilt. I act princely sometimes irrationally and I am proud to be me.
In case you guys are wondering who J is? J is my girl! Well then Brother John! Any revelations? Well, I found out that even though I am kinda old, I am rather spoilt. I act princely sometimes irrationally and I am proud to be me.
Friday, March 9, 2007
Second day another chance
Today was a great day, well after all I did finish my last book of the Icewind Dale Trilogy. R.A Salvatore wasn't that description and intense as he is now. Maybe age and experience really develops wisdom and style. All those RPG games now fall in place as I find akin to the places I travel and the monsters I battle in the previous games.
Worked for 12-2 and 5-9 at NYP and I wonder why are the shifts so weird. I thought today would indeed be boring indeed as I did not bring my training attire and my swimming gear. Turns out I was wrong as Jaime informed me that her event at NYP had a Xbox 360 for me to fiddle with. What luck! Played a couple of games and gosh were the graphics good. Had some drinks with her at the canteen and I proceeded back to the staff gym while I slack, relax and finish my novel.
So there, any revelations today Mr. John? Well not so but I do notice a few things. I do not know many of our government officials except for those more "important" ones and I find that the newspapers and TV are also boring, considering the limited amount of choices we have. And REALLY? Why do MediaCorp, CNA , SPH congratulate us for supporting them and helping them increase ratings and win awards. The truth is, how many CHOICES do we really have? Do we even have a CHOICE for media? If CableTV was free, do you seriously think that our local stations even stand a chance? Go ponder my friends!
Worked for 12-2 and 5-9 at NYP and I wonder why are the shifts so weird. I thought today would indeed be boring indeed as I did not bring my training attire and my swimming gear. Turns out I was wrong as Jaime informed me that her event at NYP had a Xbox 360 for me to fiddle with. What luck! Played a couple of games and gosh were the graphics good. Had some drinks with her at the canteen and I proceeded back to the staff gym while I slack, relax and finish my novel.
So there, any revelations today Mr. John? Well not so but I do notice a few things. I do not know many of our government officials except for those more "important" ones and I find that the newspapers and TV are also boring, considering the limited amount of choices we have. And REALLY? Why do MediaCorp, CNA , SPH congratulate us for supporting them and helping them increase ratings and win awards. The truth is, how many CHOICES do we really have? Do we even have a CHOICE for media? If CableTV was free, do you seriously think that our local stations even stand a chance? Go ponder my friends!
Thursday, March 8, 2007
First blog first truth
It has been a long six years since I last saw Sheena. Life is unpredictable and kicks in the ass when you least expect it. I did not call out to her and I wonder why. I have to admit I was a bit disorientated and I didn't know how to react, but I can safely assure you that everything is in order or maybe chaotic order. Here is a bit of my inspiration when I was caught out in that moments of disorientations. It all seemed so surreal, unreal and ecstatic.
If I stood right before you,
Would you recognize me?
If I smiled right at you,
Would you look through me?
It's been a long time since I last saw you,
I will always remember you,
Would you remember me?
I think about all the things that had happened,
I'll never forget you,
More than half a decade of happenings,
Just would not go away.
I hope you guys enjoyed it.
If I stood right before you,
Would you recognize me?
If I smiled right at you,
Would you look through me?
It's been a long time since I last saw you,
I will always remember you,
Would you remember me?
I think about all the things that had happened,
I'll never forget you,
More than half a decade of happenings,
Just would not go away.
I hope you guys enjoyed it.
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